Bad skin. Acne. For those of you afflicted with the same
curse as myself, you’ll know how debilitating and horrible this condition is.
For girls, it makes you cake on make-up you wouldn’t do normally, grow your
hair long to hide behind it (which, ironically, probably makes the problem
worse) and, on a particularly bad day, makes you want to just hide away in a
dark cave somewhere. I even feel uncomfortable writing this post, and I’m
basically anonymous! And for guys, I can’t even begin to imagine how you deal
with it without the luxury of foundation - I think girls possibly have this one
a little easier.
The problem is, if you haven’t suffered it yourself, it’s
difficult to contemplate how hard it is for people with the condition.
Especially if a person is able to cover it well, often people tell you that
it’s not that bad and can’t understand why you’re so self-conscious about it.
Or there are those that assume that you need to keep yourself clean and wash
more often – again, ironically, acne sufferers probably keep their faces and
bodies cleaner than the majority of the population in order to combat their bad
skin. The fact is, it’s a horrible, horrible condition that really does have a
negative impact of the sufferers’ confidence.
So, after attempting to deal with this for around 10 years,
using various over-the-counter remedies (didn’t work) and prescriptions from
the doctor (didn’t work), I was finally referred to a dermatologist, and have
been put on Accutane (Roaccutane in Britian).
If you saw me on a good day, you wouldn’t necessarily think
I had bad skin (god bless make-up). This made me question whether I was making
the right decision going on Roaccutane. I was terrified of taking these pills
beforehand, and actually still am. It only takes a quick search of Accutane to
bring up thousands of posts from people saying ‘it’s ruined my life’, ‘I wish
I’d never taken it’ and listing side effects I never knew was possible.
However, people have to remember that, for every horror story, there are plenty
of positive ones from people who say it’s the best thing they’ve ever done, and
they wished they’d done it sooner. People tend to report the bad stuff, right?
With this in mind, and I think a pretty realistic view of
the possible side effects, I am now 1 week into a 4 month course of Roaccutane (30mg day – my
skin condition would probably be described as moderate). So far – to be honest, there have been very
few noticeable effects of any kind. My skin hasn’t really had any new breakouts
this week, but occasionally I do have weeks like that. As for side effects, not
many yet (famous last words, I’m sure). My lips feel like they may be starting
to get a little dryer, and I’ve had quite a few stomach aches (but I suffer
from these anyway – what good genes I’ve been blessed with!). I am aware it’s
very early days, and am fully expecting the side effects to start hitting soon
(I am armed and ready with Vaseline, lip balm and aquaphor!) so I’ll report
back next week and see if anything’s changed. For those of you on it, I’m
interested to hear how your experiences are. I’ll post soon too with products
and make-up I’ve tried that have somewhat helped. I’d like to end this post by
saying something along the lines of we’re beautiful inside and out, stay strong
– but, I’m a typical reserved Brit, so to anyone struggling with acne or
battling Roaccutane, chin up and keep positive, fingers crossed it’ll all be
worth it in the end.